Day 1

What If? 

News that I have to be quarantined for the next 10 days came upon me as a shock. “You would always think that it will happen to others and not to yourself.” This sentiment rang true to me as I ponder the “what ifs”. What if I didn’t take over YQ’s lesson on Tuesday, what if it were another student from another class or another school. 

I guess all the what ifs will just remain as it is, what if. Ultimately, I believe that God has a plan for this to happen in my life at such a time. Hopefully as I pen down my thoughts and look back at what I’ve written over the course of the next 10 days, I will find the answer. 

Feeling of guilt and loss weighs heavily on my heart today. I cannot hug and kiss the one I love, even though we are in the same house, I am unable to speak to them face to face for fear of passing something unknown and invisible. How will Shirleen manage without me around her? Will this take a toil on her health? How will the helper manage the children given that even before this she seems so impatient around them? A thousand and one questions keep weighing on my mind.

But as I meditate, the one thing that I believe God is telling me today is to continue to be faithful. It’s not enough to just be faithful once but I need to continue to be faithful especially when things are not going well (which definitely describes the situation I am in right now). He is also reminding me that my family, my health, my wealth is not MINE but HIS. These are HIS children and HIS daughter. I need to trust that God is looking after them as well and that I need to do all I can to be good stewards of what belong to Him.

Dear God,

Help me know you more each day as I take a step back from my busyness and reflect on who you are. Help me to know you more and more each day, Amen.